Instead of continuing my social project when i was a college student, i choose a job as an banker. Anyhow, there shouldn't be any regret of the way I am living now. The way that make it possible for me to be an independent, not fully independent. But there's enough money to giving more, to parents , siblings or the community. That's the best part, I never give as much as I did when I was a college student.
It was very difficult in the first three month. Imagine how my life turns over almost 180 degrees. There's no more casual wear, I've pushed by my office to wear more 'representative' suits, to replace my 'pesantren' looks-like.
And, now, here comes the opportunities. A teacher. Whooaa, I can't imagine what else is better than this! it's suits me the best. I always looking for a job that have a big impact. And those big impact, I will explain below,
"Orang berilmu dan beradab tidak akan diam di kampung halaman. tinggalkanlah negerimu dan merantaulah ke negeri orang merantaulah, kau akan dapat pengganti dari kerabat dan kawan berlelah-lelahlah, manisnya hidup terasa setelah lelah berjuang aku melihat air menjadi rusak karena diam tertahan jika mengalir menjadi jernih, jika tidak, kan keruh menggenang Singa jika tak tinggalkan sarang tak akan dapat mangsa Anak panah jika tinggalkan busur tak akan kena sasaran Jika matahari di orbitnya tidak bergerak dan terus diam Tentu manusia bosan padanya dan enggan memandang Bijih emas bagaikan tanah biasa sebelum digali dari tambang Kayu gaharu tak ubahnya seperti kayu biasa jika di dalam hutan.(Imam Syafii)1. I'm sure that I am the 'water'. Water gives strength to the creatures, the basic needs. That is how i am so precious to the other people. And i don't want to be a water in a bath tub. I want to be a flowing water, a river. Because, as noted in many sourah in the Holy Qur'an, 'Jannah'or Paradise appears just like this, "Their reward with their Lord is Adn (Eden) Paradise (Gardens of Eternity), underneath which rivers flow, they will abide therein forever" (QS Al Bayyinah:8) Allah uses this representation because Allah loves the things that is moving. The decision I have to make now. And I'm sure I suppose to be a water, I have to inspires more people, do more changes, moves faster, influences wider! 2. I'm sure that I am the 'lion' That's because, I'm brave and powerful. my 'roar' can wake people up, to reach their dreams. And of course I am a lion, just like my idol, Umar Ibn Khatthab, "the Lion of The desert." (CMIIW) 3. I am arrows. I am slim ! (ehm) I am energetic, and always focus of what i am doing, yet the goals. I want people, together with me to run quickly, among the life challenges. 4. I am the gold. I have some similarities with gold! yes! I am shining with my own way! there's no one that should be compares to me. Nothing compares to me. Everybody, specifically woman, has their own beauty. I am also unique, and precious of course :) I'm not really sure that this blogpost represent my personality precisely. Because, I don't feel as confident as I show here.. Anyway, Indonesia Mengajar is perfect place, for the people, and our educational development. whatever will be, will be, but I'll always fight for it!